This is the first time I've ever joined any group and I'm not sure what to say, but

I'd like to belong.

   I first realized how bad my health was when I became pregnant for the first time. I

ended up spending every day at the clinic, because the sugar levels were so high and

uncontrollable.  My baby turned out fine. (now pregnant with her first child).

   At 47 I am on disability. I do go to a pain and rehab clinic and they help me so much.  I now have a pain pump which helps with the neuropathy 60%.  It was a  huge help, but because I have overlapping problems I still have alot of pain.  My doc has talked about the spinal transmitter.  I'm going to end up looking like a robot.  But before they try that, they are going to change the meds in my pump from dilauded and clonidine to prialte (sea snails). I'm very fearful as prialte can cause depression and psychosis. I'm already depressed and the thought of going crazy is my biggest fear.